The sweet part.

So i haven't written an actual blog blog in a while, have i?
I'll start off with that facebook question most people don't even read anymore;
"what's on your mind?"
Well, many things as usual.
I've realized now that time is always going to be out of my grasp, that it will never do what i want it to do. I've realized that as i get older, the time flies by faster. I can barely believe time is the same the whole way through life, it can't just be me not noticing.
If i look back two years, never could i have imagined i'd be where i am right now in my life.
And i mean that in a very positive way.
And that's the point. I have always been so unexpecting of my life in the past, because i had never had much in my life back then, so i thought i probably never would.
Oh i had hopes and dreams, definitely. But i wouldn't actually feel like they'd ever come true. Not really.
Last year was a horrible one for me to be honest. But i guess i just had to endure the storm before i could get to the rainbow.
And this year started off immediately with amazing things. 4 days into it, a new journey of finding myself began. The Philippines was something i will never ever forget. It was my first taste of missionary work, and traveling overseas. And of course, i want more.
I now crave all of that.
But really, because i was still in my more pessimistic state towards myself achieving anything in life, I would think before the trip came, what happens after the trip? What then? Do i just go back to Australia, back to school, and have everything go back to the way it was? Back to normal?
I hate normal.

But when i returned home from the Philippines i had changed too much already to let anything be back to 'normal'. So it hasn't been normal at all. The summer was a bit confused, with cold weather mixed with sizzling days, when i went to Seaspray beach almost three days in a row.
I'm enjoying school, apart from maths and the occasional failure feeling at Japanese, but i'm getting there.
This term is a really really busy one for me too. But a good kinda busy.
I mean i'm going to the FEMF.
I'm going to Sydney for the Colour Conference two days after that.
I've got my debutante ball on April 1st.
And i'm going along the Great Ocean Road with Steph in the holidays, to then be driven from Lourne to Ringwood so i can go to the Switchfoot concert.
I've also got a few Birthdays thrown in there, as well as my own. no more sweet 16? The funny thing is, there wasn't much sweetness to last year. Well actually there really was, the sweetness being my incredible friends. I have some great memories.
But i think the more sweet side is coming a year late for me. Because i still have those incredible friends, well almost, as well as some exciting things to look forward to thrown in.
And especially after the Philippines trip, my relationship with Christ has taken a new turn which was much needed, and for that i'm loving life so much more.
I may be going to my family reunion in Paynesville too.
Maybe.
But i may have to make some trip to Melbourne or something SO I CAN FIND SOME DEB SHOES. GAH.
And yeah.
Wow.
I've rambled again. But that's pretty much where i'm at with my life.
And that's basically what's on my mind.
Apart from wondering if everyone has left my house yet after my dad's 50th birthday party last night, that somehow turned from a nice get-together at the greyhounds, to an everlasting drunken-laughter fest at four in the morning while i was trying to sleep.

But i like the first topic a bit better.
7 days til i'm 17.