Please raise your hand if you feel the same.

I'm going to be completely honest in this post. Completely true to how I'm feeling in the moment that I type these words into this otherwise blank white square that will soon be the latest blog post. Probably a dangerous thing to do, but here goes anyway.

I don't get it. I really don't get it! A big part of me has always dismissed myself as the same as everyone else when it came to dreams, ambitions and aspirations. I'd tell myself that for every dream I had, somebody else probably had two. For every moment of passion I feel, the person walking on the footpath across the road from me has the same feeling for something else.
Everyone has dreams, correct? Everyone has desires, a longing to do something with themselves that they fully believe they would love to do? If they're not currently aware of these desires, they become aware as time moves on, right? Or am I completely wrong? Am I one of the very few humans walking around me right now as I sit here on this park bench in my minuscule town who harbours an unfulfilled dream?

It seems that would almost make more sense to me right now. Otherwise, how are they so calm? How can they look so comfortable in their own skin? People hide things all the time, and I know from plenty of experience of being a part of the human race, sure. But these passions of mine, these dreams I have not yet experienced in my waking hours, are things I cannot hide. I can't control them. I can't tame them. I can't keep quiet about them, and I sure as all heck cannot settle for less when they are around.
Funnily enough, they're around all the time! So tell me, blog that cannot physically satisfy my sheer frustrations with an answer I can digest, am I the only one?

How can one keep so calm and collected if they harbour these things inside of them? Do they have these kinds of passions too?
I almost want the answer to be no, so I could perhaps feel slightly better about myself.

I can barely sit still these days. And while in one ear I have Team Go-create-your-own-destiny telling me to get off my backside and grab a hold of my dream with both hands whether it wants to be man-handled or not and Team Sometimes-it's-good-to-pause-and-appreciate-what-you-already-have saying things like, "You've got people who need you here, maybe this is where you need to be right now", I'm trying to keep my mouth shut tight so I don't let out an agonising scream and permanently scare all the wildlife away.

Another question I have would be; how do you let those with compatible dreams know that you feel the same? How does one stand out among a crowd who all seem to want the same thing?
If they all do, then I feel awful for them! If they feel just like I feel then they must be going through absolute torture. If this is the case, though, where was I when they were taught how to hide it?

If it's not the case... what then? How do the like-minded and equally passionate find each other in such an overcrowded space when everyone looks the same?

I believe I have just admitted one of my biggest fears. The fear of missing it. The fear of being stuck in this overcrowded room, still searching for souls who are the same as me, only to find they have already discovered one another and left me behind. Maybe they've already left? Maybe they've already pulled their dreams out of their sleep and into the real world and I just can't see that because nobody has shown me how to open my eyes?

How do I make myself known when everyone else is trying to do the same thing? Do I even deserve to be known, if it meant someone else would never be? Does everyone who tries for their dreams, have the ability to achieve them?
Can everyone who feels like their unachieved ambitions are eating them alive to the point where they have to physically hold back their screams, please raise their hand?

Or am I really the only one?

We are miracles, and we're not alone.

I've got my heart set for what happens next;

I've got my eyes wide - it's not over yet.