It really does explain things. It's like I'm more ready to be alive than ever before.
It's a new chapter in my life now. And how perfect, that this new chapter is the ending of my exams, and the beginning of a new Summer.
One thing has to end for another to begin, and that's what is happening inside me now. I'm not even sure what it is that's ending, but I do know I'm so ready for whatever is about to begin.
I'd rather be a comma, than a full stop.
I'm not going overseas to do good in the world, like my best friends are doing. I had my time last Summer, in the Philippines. And that was incredible, that was perfect timing for me. Now it's their turn. But in the new year coming, I will finally be a camp leader at Forest Edge. Something I've been silently dreaming of since I was 8 years old. It's funny how things come slow, yet when they do come, the timing is even more than perfect.
Before these camps though, I'll have a free, unplanned Summery end of 2011 ahead of me. I know I'll be seeing, hearing, feeling, tasting, smelling, doing, experiencing a bunch of crazy wonderfuls. I'm happy, even before exams, I'm happy. I'm more than content. Life's beautiful.
And it's not like I'm expecting things. I'm not, really. I'm aware that there will always be negatives that will try to get me down. But they don't belong to me, I am a child of Christ. I'm separated from the dark. And as long as I keep that fact in my mind, I've got a very bright future ahead of me.
And, okay so I try to not think of things in this light, but I feel like I really do have a chance to change the world. In small ways. I don't think I'd want to be famous. But I think my life will be worth living. It's strange to think how I've just been living in this same house, same town, same country, same everything my whole life. And when I was young, I was so closed off from the world outside of Sale. But when I think about it now, I really have achieved a few of my dreams, already.
I've been overseas! HOW CRAZY IS THAT. Something I never believed I'd get to do. It felt like nothing existed but the east side of Australia. and wow, I was in the Philippines. and when I think about a lot of my friends, I've had connections all over the world.
Brittany has been everywhere, for one. She's in Hong Kong now. Hollie was in London and parts of Europe, so was James, being an exchange student in Switzerland, as is another girl who is more of an acquaintance to me... Steph was in America. Ben is from Canada. There are people liky Renny and Steven and Amy from South Africa, Will too. And then those kiwis like Lisa and Brayden... Kirsten was in Japan, Kirby is living in Brazil, Ben lived in Thailand, my mum went to Hawaii... and heaps of my friends from school are about to head to Vietnam.FAR. OUT.
...Literally haha.
Now that I've rambled on about my realizations, I'm good. I feel like I'm somebody. I feel like, if all these people who have been in my life at some stage have gone far, and I've gone far, we can all keep going further and further. Further than we'll be able to imagine.
Wow.
Feeling pretty ready now. I like that I have a purpose.
So you can hurt, hurt me bad
But still I'll raise the flag.
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