Say goodbye.

"Things are changing
It seems strange and
I need to figure this out.

You've got your life
I've got mine
But you're all I cared about.

Yesterday we were laughing
Today i'm left here asking
Where has all the time gone now?
I'm left alone somehow.

Growing up and getting older
I don't want to believe it's over.

And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say Goodbye."



I realise now the extent of how much things have changed.
Change.
I hate you change.
I hate your bittersweet taste.
I hate your false hope, yet at times you surprise me with real hope instead.
You bring new life, but you destroy the old.
I liked how it was.
I know change comes to bring about the better, but i feel like an immature little girl who is on the verge of stomping her feet and screaming at the top of her lungs, yelling "I don't want to go!"
Because i don't want this to end.
I know going through hardships create a better person, the fire may be hot but without it, a potter's work is useless.

So soon, maybe even in a few minutes time, i'll feel fine.
I'll feel better, i'll get over it, move on, and like the change.
But that's still in the future, right now, i'm throwing a tantrum.
Sorry, but i am.

I don't want to grow up, I don't want to be any older than 16.
16's old enough.
But then again i can't wait for the future, and then again, i wish i was 5 years old once more.

This is the bittersweetness i sincerely hate.
I don't know what i want, i want to go back, i want to move on, i want to stay here.
I know what you'll be thinking, that's the beauty of life. It changes just when we really need it to.
I know it doesn't matter what i want, what i think about time, because it's just gonna keep on going without my consent.
I'm just complaining, i guess.
I will get over it soon.
But at this moment i just wish i had a little longer with you. I wish i could hold the sun in place with between my fingers and linger in the moment.
But you're gone now.
You have your own life to live, even if that life isn't a part of mine.
I already miss you too much, and it's not even 10 minutes since i last saw you.
But that was the last glimpse of you for a long time.
So farewell i guess, be amazing with whatever you do, wherever you go.
You're not going to be forgotten.