Silly Me.

There have been, and still are so many moments in my life when i have felt so inferior, so restricted, so unimportant, and so inexperienced in the world.
I have lived in the same town, same house, and even the same bedroom, my entire life.
I have never been overseas.
The longest i have been on holidays would be about two weeks.
I have only been to four of the 7 states in Australia.
Heck, i haven't even seen all of my hometown of 16 years yet.
I went to a tiny Primary school with about 35 children - 40 if we were really lucky.
I then moved to High School, and have been with the same high school for four years, with two more to go.
I haven't moved schools other than from primary to high school.
This is practically my life so far.

I look at my friends, who have gone to England, Scotland, America, France, Switzerland, China, Philippines, Fiji, you name it, they've been there.
And i'm just sitting here, in the same small bedroom, same house, same town, same state, same country.
It's kind of very depressing.

But all of a sudden, this year starts to make me wonder where i will be by the end of 2010.
All these offers of moving to Japan, to Papua New Guinea, to QLD, with the possibilities of Italy and maybe Singapore thrown in.
So what am i meant to think? It was all out of nowhere. And now, i haven't even heard about those offers for about 2 months. Dad won't speak about it much anymore. So now i doubt i'll be moving.

Also, upcoming is my trip to the Philippines in Early January. Time for some more thoughts of Culture Shock.

So now, with my maths test tomorrow, hiking trip coming up along with Exo day, Shine, all the preparations for those activities and all my stupid school work, my brain is bursting at the seams.
BUT, it's still OK.
Because i am blessed to have a pillow on my bed, in my very own room, in my house, in an abundant country, in this crazy world.
I think about all these things that worry me, and... well, they are worrying. But there are others who are dreaming of pillows while their heads rest on stones.
There are others who are longing for a drop of water while i'm gulping it down by the gallons.
There are others who are hoping for the possibility of attending a school, while i would rather curl up in bed and throw my education away.

So even though i feel like i haven't experienced anything in the world, i have it VERY, VERY good.
So, Cassie, Stop your stupid complaining.