Go Away Life.

Okay, so this post is really gonna sound negative. but oh well.
I have this crazy idea that somehow i'm going to enjoy every second of life. I should really wake up from that dream. Ofcourse life is gonna have ups and downs. If there were no downs, how can we determine what 'Ups' really are? I just wish it would stay UP, for like 10 minutes? Please?!
GAH.
My life so far = Midyear Exams, drama essays, english essays, maths tests, remembering another language, daily routined homework, fauvism poster, learning my lines for a play, learning my lines for another play, actually finding where my script IS so i CAN learn my lines, learning a billion songs, music practise. This is just schoolishness. Aside from that,

no sleep, family crowding the house, a family member just passing, and another family member following in their footsteps,

grief,pain, illness, stress, and FRUSTRATION about everything.
yaaaaaaay.
This is where i say, 'Stop the World, i want to get off.'
Truth is, i would prefer to be focussing on all the wonders of life. i'd prefer to be dwelling on my philippines trip coming up. I'd prefer to be able to lay on the soft green grass with blue skies above me, remembering how amazing God really is.
It's horrible seeing people so caught up in working, schooling, studying, and money. They just don't ever look up at the sky. or watch the sun set. or literally smell roses. They don't appreciate the world around us.
And I'm becoming one of those people. Right now is the part where i'd like to say that i'm not going to become on of them, but i'm doubting myself right now. If i look up at the sky, teachers get on my back about paying attention. Even if i smile in class, they suspect i'm not doing work. Because work can't be fun, so why is she smiling?
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I'm just so over this. I might try running away. nah, that would get lonely. I wish i could escape right now...go on vacation, find summer again, be carefree. But we all know that's not going to happen :/
Gotta go. Time to visit the Hospital again :|