In the end it will all be okay. And if it's not okay, it's not the end.

Life's filled with many mixed emotions.
I feel Happy. Sad. Excited. Frustrated. Loving. Angry.
And most of all Confused.
But all i can say to it is mum's famous four words:
Ahwell. Ya get that.

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Telephones scare me.
Not all the time, just sometimes, like now. I really don't know why, it's mainly whenever i'm home alone and it's my responsibility to answer the phone.
It scares me, hearing the ringing noise coming from a little white hand-held device, and knowing someone is waiting to be heard.
Maybe not to be heard from me, most of the time it's never for me. But i'm the one who must press that little green symbol, and say hello to the voice coming out those tiny holes.
Another part of telephone calls that scare me is the immediate action that must take place.
We drop everything we are doing and run as fast as we can to find the white Panasonic device before it stops ringing.
It's so demanding, and kind of frightening to know someone is waiting for you, and you must not miss it. When you do miss it, it's really not that big a deal.
In fact, the whole telephone thing i've just blogged about isn't a big deal at all. It shouldn't be scary. But it kind of makes me nervous.
Just a bunch of weird thoughts i decided to share...

DW,B:)

I am so so so so so excited right now.
And i have no idea why. But i'm not going to question it
Because it's the bestest feeling.



I don't care about the crap that is going on right now. I truly love life, i love my family, i love my friends. The people who surround me are spectacular.

I love my ears.

It's crazy. How can a bunch of sound waves travelling through the air and into our ears result in beautiful melodious music?



Thank you, ears. I am so fortunate to be able to hear.

Life never ceases to amaze me.

We are all trying to figure life out. So instead of insults and accusations, let's try and help each other out, yeah?

Waiting to be found.

And it's alright, 'cause you can try but you'll never keep me down.

It's alright, i may be lost but you'll never keep me down.

And you can try, you can try but you'll never keep me down.

You can try, i know i'm lost but i'm waiting to be found.



You'll Never Keep Me Down.

Silly Me.

There have been, and still are so many moments in my life when i have felt so inferior, so restricted, so unimportant, and so inexperienced in the world.
I have lived in the same town, same house, and even the same bedroom, my entire life.
I have never been overseas.
The longest i have been on holidays would be about two weeks.
I have only been to four of the 7 states in Australia.
Heck, i haven't even seen all of my hometown of 16 years yet.
I went to a tiny Primary school with about 35 children - 40 if we were really lucky.
I then moved to High School, and have been with the same high school for four years, with two more to go.
I haven't moved schools other than from primary to high school.
This is practically my life so far.

I look at my friends, who have gone to England, Scotland, America, France, Switzerland, China, Philippines, Fiji, you name it, they've been there.
And i'm just sitting here, in the same small bedroom, same house, same town, same state, same country.
It's kind of very depressing.

But all of a sudden, this year starts to make me wonder where i will be by the end of 2010.
All these offers of moving to Japan, to Papua New Guinea, to QLD, with the possibilities of Italy and maybe Singapore thrown in.
So what am i meant to think? It was all out of nowhere. And now, i haven't even heard about those offers for about 2 months. Dad won't speak about it much anymore. So now i doubt i'll be moving.

Also, upcoming is my trip to the Philippines in Early January. Time for some more thoughts of Culture Shock.

So now, with my maths test tomorrow, hiking trip coming up along with Exo day, Shine, all the preparations for those activities and all my stupid school work, my brain is bursting at the seams.
BUT, it's still OK.
Because i am blessed to have a pillow on my bed, in my very own room, in my house, in an abundant country, in this crazy world.
I think about all these things that worry me, and... well, they are worrying. But there are others who are dreaming of pillows while their heads rest on stones.
There are others who are longing for a drop of water while i'm gulping it down by the gallons.
There are others who are hoping for the possibility of attending a school, while i would rather curl up in bed and throw my education away.

So even though i feel like i haven't experienced anything in the world, i have it VERY, VERY good.
So, Cassie, Stop your stupid complaining.