And I know, I'll never let You go.

In Love.

Desperate for changing, Starving for truth.
I'm closer to where i started, Chasing after you.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
I'm letting go of all i held onto.


As time goes on, as everything around me changes, i can't help but become even more in love with you. Nothing matters anymore, and i love it. I love You.
So many things have happened for me to fret about, for me to worry and complain and be discouraged about. But i see You, and everything else fades away into insignificance. What have i got to be unhappy for? I am spending all of eternity with the one I love.
How i love you. My Saviour, my Peace, my Joy, my Comfort, my Everlasting Love, my Absolutely Everything.

You are all i want, all i need, all i believe, and all i see.
I need no scientific evidence of You, though there is much evidence anyway. I know You.

There is nothing but you to me now. I am truly satisfied. And then some. And then some more, and some more, and a whole heck of a lot more.

My life is my love letter to You. My desire is to live selflessly, so that there may be less of me and more of you, until You and I are One.

I could just go on and on. Just, kfjpawsuhgfpauigahfpeisughapjik! I am beside myself with ultimate joy because of You. Thank you for absolutely everything; every single little thing. Thank you.

The Adjustment.

There's something about this year, that is already making me smile.
Well, not fully smile, more like a sort of subtle half-grin that is slowly creeping up on me and growing a little bigger each day.
I like this year. I do.
Much more so than last year.
Possibly because of me. My mindset has changed. I've got a better attitude toward everything.. well almost everything.
I'm working on it.

I've changed, and for the better, in my (and perhaps your) opinion. Although, a few of my old habits haven't budged an inch. It's 12:13am and yet i try to get a good night's sleep for school. I'm working on that too, i promise.
So far, not so good. But there's always tomorrow night.
Plus, i still am very capable of rambling. Take this post, for instance. Take any other post on my blog, really.
Rambling is a strange word. Come to think of it, i prefer the term 'waffling'.
Makes me hungry.
Argh. still rambling. Waffling, rather. Shut up Cassie.

My point is (yes i actually do have a point), Last year i depended on everything around me to determine how my life would be. Not that i thought i was perfect and everything and everyone had to change to suit me, but i would just expect things to be happier, smoother.
Life is never smooth. I know, what was i thinking, right?
I put too many expectations on what would happen, what would not happen, my friends, my family, my education and my weekends and spare time.
But as if life ever goes to plan.

When i look back, honestly, i could have enjoyed myself so much more if i had of maintained a better attitude. It's all about how i deal with the situation.
Things happened last year that were horrible, and i don't blame myself for acting the way i did when they occurred. That just happens sometimes.
But this year i am putting my whole reliance on God and God alone.
And I'm giving life all I've got.
The great advantage is that i don't have to deal with life alone. And my personal consultant just happens to be the creator of it all.

To sum it all up, if that's possible with anything i ever say, a big part of whether we are happy with our lives is our attitude. It's not easy being some person who's smiling-24/7, i don't mean that. I mean how we react to the situations at hand determine what will come from them.
Yeah. I think that makes sense.
Anyway, i really need to be asleep now. Sweet Dreams, Mr. Blog.

Things to be excited about:

1) Forest Edge Music Festival - March 11th - 13th.
2) The Debutante Ball - April 1st.
3) Switchfoot concert in Ringwood - April 22nd.
4) Family Reunion - Date unknown.
5) My Dad's 50th Birthday party - March some time.
6) Colour Conference in Sydney - March... i forget the dates.
7) My studio art project - over the duration of the year.
8) Media in general.
9) Youth Group nights - Every Friday.
10) Curling up in my bed with a cup of tea, a Christy Miller book, and my kitty.
11) The peace beyond understanding i am constantly feeling from Jesus.

Once upon a time
Sand was running
Through my hand.
And we were in the hourglass,
We laughed
But did not understand.
Our moment would pass.
Our moment has past.

We have little to give
But we give all the more.
I have little to live
But I will live all the more.

Give me one good reason why I should fall.

The Change Starts Here.

The fear, the suffering, the doubt, the shame.

It is all gone.

I saw it. Up in flames. The smoke was rising before my eyes.

And now it is all gone.

Gone.

I am moving on.

And although i am weak and can hardly stand on my own two feet,

He is the one who is strong. He carries me now.

He was just waiting for me to open my arms and embrace Him, as he so longed to do to me.

You won't relent until you have it all.

My heart is yours.

Come be the fire inside of me,

Come be the flame upon my heart.

Come be the fire inside of me,

Until You and I are One.

I don't wanna talk about you, like you're not in the room.

I wanna look right at you.

I wanna sing right to you.

There's nothing i want more.

My heart is yours.

This is home.

I've got my memories

Always inside of me

But i can't go back

Back to how it was.
Believe me now

I've come too far
And i won't go back

Back to how it was.

Watching the sunrise this morning over Central Australia made me feel so at home with this country.

The ranges of dry oranges, yellows and greens that swirl in patterns over the nation's floor is so different compared to the mountainous terrains of emerald and deep greens of the Philippine islands.

Even just by saying it like that, the Philippines sounds more beautiful. It was beautiful. But the colours of Australia was comforting and just fits more.

I really do love Australia.

The Philippines was amazing, i absolutely LOVED the village we went to up in the mountains.

It was like something out of the movie Swiss Family Robinson.

The children were so beautiful, overflowing with energy and joy, and when you look in their eyes you see so much life, so much potential, so much hope.

I will miss many things about the Philippines, but even so, i love Australia.

It's just home.

While i was in the Philippines i was glad to be there.

And likewise, i'm very glad to be back home again.

I better be going next year again though.

And now, I'm a different person. Not some saint, not some rebel or something, not some revolutionary that plans on chaining myself to trees and waving signs in protests.

But i have discovered more of myself. In a different country i had never been to, i saw more of who i am than ever before.

I have some kind of direction for once.

I can see a small portion of the path God has set me on, which is good. I can't see very far ahead still but that does not matter in the slightest.

He is the lamp unto my feet; the light unto my very windy, very narrow path.