You are.

I will get straight to the point on this one:

I totally and completely, fully, wholeheartedly believe that Jesus Christ is Lord.

Jesus,

I may never be able to describe just what you have done for me, not to you, not to anyone else, not myself.

I don't think there are such words in existance that would accomplish such a task.

I know about science, about theories, figures, statistics, apparent facts and apparent evidence that disagree with who you are.

But what i know even more is what i know in my heart.

You are like the wind.

We cannot see you with our physical eyes, but we know you are real because if we just look around, we can see your miracles taking place every second right in front of us.

Wind is invisible, but it moves the visible things very clearly, just like you do.

I don't know how to explain who you are or what you are and i don't know how to answer all the questions.

But i do know that you are just,

definitely, totally, completely, truly real.

Life is not by chance.

I myself don't believe in karma,

or cults,

or religions,

and many other things.

I don't ever wish to intrude upon others beliefs.

I am just saying what i believe.

And Jesus i can feel you in my heart right now, more than these keys under my fingers.

I so love you.

And I so wish the whole world could know the love i have found in you, like i do right now.

"Do you know how fast you were going?"

Time is fleeting.
I am running out of that stupid crap that keeps track of life.
It just keeps disappearing, it's frustrating me.
I'm frustrated that i have too much to do.
I'm frustrated that everything always happens at once.
Life is speeding fast away, and I'm barely hanging on at the moment.

I don't want to grow older. I don't want to think of the present time as the future's past.
People are coming, people are going.
I don't want Meggie to move. It will suck.
The year is ending, a new year is coming.
I know the future holds much potential.
But I'm just not done with 2010 yet.

I don't have time to think about what will happen tomorrow.
I'm still working on yesterday lol.
Please just slow down for a little bit?
I suggest a Pitt stop, I need to unwind.
Otherwise,
Pretty soon I'll be about to crash.

The Last Shall Be First

Come, tell me your trouble

I'm not your answer

But i'm a listening ear.

Reality has left you reeling

All facts and no feeling

No faith and all fear

I don't know why a good man will fall

While a wicked one stands

And our lives blow about

Like flags on the land

Who's at fault is not important

Good intentions lie dormant

And we are all to blame

While apathy acts like an ally

My enemy and i are one and the same

I don't know why the innocent fall

While the monsters still stand

And our lives blow about

Like flags on the land

I don't know why our words are so proud

Yet their promise soothing

And our lives blow about

Like flags in the wind

Oh you who mourn will be comforted

You who hunger will hunger no more

All the last shall be first

Of this I am sure

You who weep now will laugh again

All you lonely be lonely no more

Yes, the last will be first

Of this I am sure.

I don't know why the innocent fall

Or why the little ones thirst

But i know the last shall be first.

The last shall be first.

sometimes i just need to be alone.
sometimes i just need to hear silence and see darkness and feel nothing.
it's not necessarily a bad thing. It's more like an escape from bad things.
sometimes, it's just that i need to be forgotten.

The hope of all the Earth.

Far
beyond
what
i
can
see
or
comprehend

You
Are
Etching
your
eternity
in
me.

Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who i really am.