I am weak, but You are strong.

Here is freedom, freedom.

No profound thought or clever rhyme,
No soaring grand, melodic line,
No theory, philosophy or sign
Can explain it
Can explain.

No praise of man,
No great acclaim,
No humble looking kind of fame.
No power, wealth or worldly gain
Could ever satisfy me
Could ever satisfy.

Where you are, I wanna be.
It's your love that has changed me.
I'd give the world, and all it's charms,
For a moment in your arms.

such is me.

I am experiencing a
sudden, unexplainable
feeling of euphoric emotion.

Better or worse but what else can we do? When better or worse, i am tethered to you. If it's not either of us, tell me, who are we fooling? This beautiful tangle that's bruising us blue, it's a beautiful knot that we just can't undo. If it's not either of us, tell me, who are we fooling?

Enjoying myself. Enjoying everyone else.

There's so much for you.

Who, who's touched you child?
Now you can't feel a thing, not anything.
Who's been the one telling you lies?
Now you'll believe anything.

How, how many fires, to make you feel pure again, alive again?
And what will it take, what has to break, for you to begin again?
What will it take?

You gotta let, let it all come out.
Let, let it all come out
Right now.
Right now.

Lift yourself out of it all,
Come out from the shadows to the sun.
Oh you gotta lift yourself out of it all,
Yesterday's over, a new one's begun.

You're only sick as all your secrets,
Let them all come out, let them come.

'Cause the devil came to steal your name away.
The devil came to give your name away.

Let, let it all come out.
Let, let it all come out.
Right now.
There's so much for you, there's so much for you.

What happens during my Saturday-night sleeps:

1. I go to bed at midnight.

2. I dream of crazy things, such as being in Greece, living in a house that is falling apart and checking on my baby. Yes, my baby.

3. I wake up at 4:30am, half asleep and not quite aware of much.

4. I trip over on my way to the bathroom.

5. I go to use the tap, but nothing comes out. I check the other taps, but nothing comes out.

6. I head back to bed, confused.

7. I trip over in the exact same spot in my bedroom.

8. I hear the sound of trickling water outside somewhere.

9. I fall asleep again.

10. I dream of being in Greece again, except this time i was either doing a photo shoot where i was the photographer, and taking photos of a scary-looking guy who somehow turned the lights out with his eyes, turned the lights back on, and he was holding the camera equipment and became the photographer, taking photos of me.

11. I also dream that i was in an uncomfortable bed next to a power-point with both holes being occupied, and they suddenly caused a spark and a little fire, that somehow grew into a big fire, so i filled up a baby-stroller with water and threw it 'onto' the fire, which only fueled the flames somehow.

12. I wake up, thoroughly on edge and confused.

13. I hear the sound of tools clinking together and the shuffle of footsteps out my window.

14. I look out my window.

15. I see a figure bending over my front yard's garden, digging it up.

16. I become beyond thoroughly on edge and confused.

17. I ask my also half-asleep mother what is going on.

18. She tells me a water pipe had burst so we had no water until this guy could fix it, but in a tired, rushed voice so she could quickly get back to sleep. The voice sounded so weird, scary even. Although imagine how i would've sounded.

19. I feel some sense start to flow back into my brain.

20. But then I hear the guy who was fixing the pipe, humming to himself and speaking another language.


The confused feeling still hasn't quite left yet.

And I know, I'll never let You go.

In Love.

Desperate for changing, Starving for truth.
I'm closer to where i started, Chasing after you.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
I'm letting go of all i held onto.


As time goes on, as everything around me changes, i can't help but become even more in love with you. Nothing matters anymore, and i love it. I love You.
So many things have happened for me to fret about, for me to worry and complain and be discouraged about. But i see You, and everything else fades away into insignificance. What have i got to be unhappy for? I am spending all of eternity with the one I love.
How i love you. My Saviour, my Peace, my Joy, my Comfort, my Everlasting Love, my Absolutely Everything.

You are all i want, all i need, all i believe, and all i see.
I need no scientific evidence of You, though there is much evidence anyway. I know You.

There is nothing but you to me now. I am truly satisfied. And then some. And then some more, and some more, and a whole heck of a lot more.

My life is my love letter to You. My desire is to live selflessly, so that there may be less of me and more of you, until You and I are One.

I could just go on and on. Just, kfjpawsuhgfpauigahfpeisughapjik! I am beside myself with ultimate joy because of You. Thank you for absolutely everything; every single little thing. Thank you.

The Adjustment.

There's something about this year, that is already making me smile.
Well, not fully smile, more like a sort of subtle half-grin that is slowly creeping up on me and growing a little bigger each day.
I like this year. I do.
Much more so than last year.
Possibly because of me. My mindset has changed. I've got a better attitude toward everything.. well almost everything.
I'm working on it.

I've changed, and for the better, in my (and perhaps your) opinion. Although, a few of my old habits haven't budged an inch. It's 12:13am and yet i try to get a good night's sleep for school. I'm working on that too, i promise.
So far, not so good. But there's always tomorrow night.
Plus, i still am very capable of rambling. Take this post, for instance. Take any other post on my blog, really.
Rambling is a strange word. Come to think of it, i prefer the term 'waffling'.
Makes me hungry.
Argh. still rambling. Waffling, rather. Shut up Cassie.

My point is (yes i actually do have a point), Last year i depended on everything around me to determine how my life would be. Not that i thought i was perfect and everything and everyone had to change to suit me, but i would just expect things to be happier, smoother.
Life is never smooth. I know, what was i thinking, right?
I put too many expectations on what would happen, what would not happen, my friends, my family, my education and my weekends and spare time.
But as if life ever goes to plan.

When i look back, honestly, i could have enjoyed myself so much more if i had of maintained a better attitude. It's all about how i deal with the situation.
Things happened last year that were horrible, and i don't blame myself for acting the way i did when they occurred. That just happens sometimes.
But this year i am putting my whole reliance on God and God alone.
And I'm giving life all I've got.
The great advantage is that i don't have to deal with life alone. And my personal consultant just happens to be the creator of it all.

To sum it all up, if that's possible with anything i ever say, a big part of whether we are happy with our lives is our attitude. It's not easy being some person who's smiling-24/7, i don't mean that. I mean how we react to the situations at hand determine what will come from them.
Yeah. I think that makes sense.
Anyway, i really need to be asleep now. Sweet Dreams, Mr. Blog.

Things to be excited about:

1) Forest Edge Music Festival - March 11th - 13th.
2) The Debutante Ball - April 1st.
3) Switchfoot concert in Ringwood - April 22nd.
4) Family Reunion - Date unknown.
5) My Dad's 50th Birthday party - March some time.
6) Colour Conference in Sydney - March... i forget the dates.
7) My studio art project - over the duration of the year.
8) Media in general.
9) Youth Group nights - Every Friday.
10) Curling up in my bed with a cup of tea, a Christy Miller book, and my kitty.
11) The peace beyond understanding i am constantly feeling from Jesus.