Ohaiyou Gosaimasu...?

I've never moved anywhere before.

I've never moved countries...
I've never moved states...
I've never moved towns...
I've never moved house...
I've never even moved bedrooms.

It has always been me, just Cassie, stuck in Sale her whole life, and knows nothing else.

I've had countless friends come and go, stay for a while, only to leave again and forget this town.
But i've always been here.

People have come and gone throughout my whole life, be it teachers, friends, family, pets even.
But i've always been here.

People grow up, people move on, people get a life of their own, and pursue their own dreams.
But not me.
I've always been here.

I'm the one that sees it all happen and watches life pass by.
Sure i've been on holidays, i've been to 4 out of 7 states in Australia, that's not too bad right?
Wrong.
I always have to come back here. To this prison of a town.

Don't get me wrong, Sale is quite a beautiful place. Lakes, Wetlands, gardens galore, even a clocktower.
But it's just depressing being stuck here my whole 16 years, never even moving houses once.
Nevertheless, this is my life, and i'm used to it. These four walls have been my bedroom my whole life, i can't imagine what it'd feel like to move houses and never live in them again.

SO... that's why i was shocked, and still am, at my father's sudden statement.

"How would you feel if we had to move to Japan?"



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What am i meant to say to that?! It would be amazing, incredible, such a wonderful change, but i wouldn't be able to do it.

"Only for a year though, then we'd come back to Australia, and live in QLD."


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Seriously. way to completely throw me off-balance, when all i've been thinking about are exams.
Mum highly doubts we'll actually be moving, but Dad got the job offer, and he told me he's thinking about it.
Mum then told me he gets these kinds of offers all the time.
Uh, that's well and good and all, but not once has he ever brought up the issue to me. Which means he may be thinking seriously about it.

IF we did go, we would be leaving at the end of this year.
Goodbye Philippines Mission trip in January.
Goodbye family, Goodbye friends.
Goodbye normal English Language.
Goodbye practically everything i've ever known.

I still don't know what my answer is to that question. I don't have the slightest clue how i'd feel.
I really just don't know what to think anymore, about any of this.

What would i do?

"Stars don't shine unless it's dark
And from the dust a new road starts
So are we now both on that path?
And is home where you leave your heart?

Where do we go now. How do we walk away? "
-Levi McGrath